For a daily blogger, skipping that first blog post is rather like playing hooky from a college class: It is really hard to do, but eventually you give yourself permission. You are on top of your coursework, you are horribly tired, it is gorgeous outside and you need to go to the park…anyway, you come up with a workable excuse, and skip class/blogging.
The next day is easier. You have lost your momentum/you don’t know what the assignment was/and it is still gorgeous outside. So you don’t go to class — again/don’t blog — again. And if the class meets twice a week, you have lost an entire week. How do you go back and face the prof after missing a whole week? And as a blogger, you can’t even face the prof that is in your brain!
To carry the analogy even farther, unless you are very brave you can end up dropping the class (and that W on your transcript can become an F if it is too late in the semester. Ask me how I know.). If you are a blogger no longer blogging, you become restless because part of your routine is missing, but daily life has rushed into that space and threatens to claim it entirely. And eventually you sit down to reclaim that missing space and realize that two months have passed.
That is where I found myself this morning. Two full months have passed, and I have missed Trigger’s Horse and I have missed you, my readers. I feel like I have let us all down — my classmates and my prof. But I am back. Please find room for me in your schedule.